Numb

I've been feeling numb lately. Not physically numb, but mentally numb. Routine is my life. Some days, it's the routine from hell.

Mondays is Kinder Gym for my daughter. I get off work at 4:30, walk to daycare, hope my daughter cooperates and gets her jacket and accessories on then we walk to the bus stop. Bus comes about 10 minutes later and takes us almost directly to the community centre. Most days it goes well, but last night was evil! Sarah had a cookie that my coworker made her on the way to the gym, then at the gym I bought us each a bag of chips (usually I buy just one but I've learned that two year olds do NOT like to share!). Sarah was happy for the most part until I suggested she put her chips down and join the other kids in her gym class. That didn't go over so well. She of course said "no" and cried when I took the chips away. She screamed in fact, and loudly. She threw herself on the floor, kicking and screaming and crying while some parents laughed, most gave me understanding, sympathetic looks while one couple actually made it seem like I was the worst parent on the earth (the parents of the second most whiney child in the group... perhaps my daughters outburst made them feel superior).

After a non-successful time out, I stuffed my daughter in her stroller, kicking and screaming (her, not me... although perhaps I should have kicked and screamed also) all the way to the bus stop. I'm sure some of the people I passed along the way thought I had beat the crap out of her (which I must admit was tempting for a second or two). Finally, after about a 20 minute wait for the bus she settled down somewhat. By the time we got home, she was happy and playful again.

Hopefully tonight is not a repeat of last night... I have a daycare board meeting to go to. The only reason I volunteer is because it gives me a break from my daughter and gives me time to interact with adults... kinda like work only a bit more fun. Pray for me!